It is the attitude of DISCONTENTMENT. It is the attitude that leads to constant complaining and self-pity. It is the absence of contentment. It is the restless longing for DIFFERENT circumstances when the Lord has soverignly ordained EVERY PRESENT circumstance for my good and for His glory. It is not a spiritual discontentment in which I long for a deeper relationship with God or a more effective prayer life. No, it’s a fleshly discontentment, in which I am unhappy with a circumstance, a status, a role, a relationship, the lack of a material possession. It keeps me focused on the “if only’s,” the “what if’s,” and the “why’s.” It keeps me from a deeper relationship with God. It is the very attitude that kept the children of Israel from entering the Promised Land, and it is the very attitude that keeps me from living in the BEST DAYS.
I want everyday to be THE BEST DAY regardless of what’s going on around me. I want to pray with thanksgiving when my flesh is not thankful. I want to do everything without complaining, but instead to constantly think about things that are true, right, honorable, right, pure, lovely, of good repute, excellent, and worthy of praise. I want to be anxious for nothing but trust God for everything. I want to live above my circumstances and truly KNOW that godliness with contentment is great gain. I want to do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me. I want HIS power to be displayed in my weakness.
So, my journey begins. And the blog has a new title to reflect this journey. I know that it will be a long one because old habits are hard to break. I know that it will take intense discipline of the heart and mind. I know that it will often be moment by moment living and trusting. But I am hopeful. And I am ready. I am tired of living in the “ok” days. I want to live in the BEST days.
